71 Days Post Resolve

I don't have a lot of time to write a lot today but I thought I should let you know what's been going on with the guy I met....Things were a little rocky once we met, a lot of mixed emotions getting back into the dating world....I just felt like if anyone was going to understand what I've been through it would be him....So I really felt like I needed him to know....we sat down and I told him everything...and guess what!? He said it was ok! Can you believe it?! I have never felt so much relief on my whole life....I've still been my own worst enemy when it comes to just about everything but he's been an amazing comfort and just having the support of some one who thinks I'm beautiful inside and out makes all the difference. Things still aren't perfect but it gives me hope....Just wanted to let you all know there are decent human beings left in the world and I'm so lucky to have found one...

64 Days Post Resolve

So I just wanted to apologize for my last post...I was really upset that day....So I went to the Dr. to get the last of my warts removed thinking things were going great, they'd gotten so much better....blah blah blah....So I left work early to make it to my appointment and had a to run 2 errands before hand...So I had to go pick up this check and when i got to the place the lady couldn't find it...so I was like, I'll come back later I'm going to be late otherwise....so I decided I was going to go in to get my oil changed and drop my car off while I was at my appointment because it was right across the street. So there was a lot of traffic so I had to walk down to the crosswalk where I waited for probably three light cycles before the stupid crosswalk sign turned green. Then I finally got to the mulitcare place and realized my OB GYN's office moved and I didn't know where it was.....so feeling frazzled I finally found it, which by now I wasw 15 minutes late.....So I check in and sit and wait.....after about an hour wait and probably about 5-7 pregnant women later I finally got called......I was starting to think I was going to have to get knocked up to get some service.....So I get in the room and wait for ANOTHER HOUR......I was about the get dressed and leave, I was pissed. So finally my dr. comes in and she barely remembered me....I was like great, it was like my first visit all over again....So I explained that I still had the warts, etc. I also asked about getting retested for HSV. She said that normally they don't retest once you are positive you are positive, but she said since I asked they would look into it.....she didn't sound very positive or enthusiatic about helping me....So she takes a look and says she didn't like the way things looked and wanted to biopsy the skin down there again.....which means another painful poke in the vagina...I was like, please no, it hurts......she said the other option was surgery to cauterize the area, they would have to put me out cuz it would be a bunch of needle pokes in the vagina otherwise. I was pretty discouraged. I finally thought things were getting better.....but she treated the warts and told me to come back in a week or two.....And man did the treatment hurt this time.....well it's been a week and it looks the same down there. I'd rather just op for the surgery and get it over with..... so that's why I was so upset, just when you think you're getting close, you're not......so that was the bad news of last week.....the good news is I met a great guy! And I told him the truth, he knows everything and he is ok with it! can you believe that? good guys do exsist! I was so nervous to tell him but he is different, I just had a knot in my stomach and had to get it out in the open, I knew if anyone would understand it would be him. It turns out his ex has the same type HSV I have and he never got it....whew....what a relief. The next day I felt amazing, like this huge weight had been lifted....he has been exactly what I've needed....support and all, and we even had sex.....!!!! I finally feel like I have a normally life again....granted I still have been having tingling in my legs, but if I can get rid of these warts then I'll be home free......I still have this fear that it won't work out and I'll go back to being alone again, which is possible, but it gives me hope that i can live a normal life...so all of you who are struggling with being alone.....it can happen, and I was the biggest skeptic of all. Not to mention spontaneous told me two more people tested negative.....things are starting to look up and I just thank God for everything He has done in my life recently.....He is the reason I get up in the morning and keeps me going through the day...Hang in there everyone, it does get easier

57 Days Post Resolve

Mother fucker!!!!!! I just typed a whole novel and it just erased it! UGH!!!! yesterday sucked and when I have the energy to type all that again, I'll tell you why.

56 Days Post Resolve

Well, not much new to report. I've been doing good, been really tired lately but I ran out of vitamins for a time so I think I'm just trying to get my energy back after starting them again...haven't had an outbreak. The warts have gotten a lot better with the compound W and am getting the last of them removed in about 2 hours from my OB/GYN...I think I'll ask her about different tests for HSV....like the western blot and about getting my numbers from my other blood work...I never told her about resolve, I think she would be very skeptical, she is the type that says, yep, it's not curable, take your vitamins....the end.....so I will just check out the tests myself and see what they say...I probably won't do the western blot till my 90 days is up in september, but I'd like to know what my numbers are....I've been having quite a bit of tingling in the back of my legs...I used to have pain there but now it's just tingling so I don't really know what that means....hopefully she will be able to remove most of the warts I have left and with my vitamins and compound W I can be rid of these for good, if more don't appear that is....I definately need to be getting more sleep...I recently moved and haven't felt really rested. the warts were getting a lot better and one day after feeling really tired I noticed they had gotten a little bigger. I just don't want to be fighting this forever.... on a more positive note, I met a GUY!!! he is great and I can see him being a keeper...he doesn't know about my condition but we are taking things slow. I just have a really good feeling about him. So keep us in your prayers that this is the one who will love me for me...my condition has improved greatly and although I haven't been going to the gym and gained back the 5 pounds I lost, that I will continue to try and be healthy and feel good about me for me....hope everyone is doing well...

49 Days Post Resolve

Well I haven't written in awhile so I thought I would just drop in and say that I hope everyone is doing well....As for me... I still have some warts, they've gotten considerably better though. I'm still feeling good, keeping up on my vitamins and resting when I need to...I went Kayaking on saturday and it was super fun. Really enjoying the summer and getting out and doing the things I want to do... I e-mailed resolve to ask them about doing the booster since I still had warts and some itching and tingling. I'm sure it's from the warts, or the compound W. That tends to make them itch more. I think it's more of a healing itch than new warts developing itch...It's very mild regardless. Resolve told me I didn't need to take the booster, they said at this point I just need to apply step 3 to the warts and that's it..I don't have the $40 for the booster anyway, so I'm hoping they are right...I'm still doing good though and actually my sex drive has really kicked up...it's been about 9 months since I've had sex and I've really been feeling it this week...man, vibrators just aren't like the real thing....but actually having a sex drive is a huge step from where I was never seeing myself having sex again...I just feel better in general about my health and happiness....even if I'm not cured if I can live symptom free I'll be ok with that....I recently moved and have really started a new chapter in my life...so I hope everyone is doing just as well...be positive and stay cool...we're having a heat wave here!

36 Days Post Resolve

Well it's day 36 and other then the fact that I ran out of vitamins and am totally exhausted, I'm doing good...I went in for my follow up pap on friday and the Dr. said my cervix looked good, she did not see any white spots and there was only one red spot that she figured was from the biopsy....so that's good news, at least one strand is clearing...I don't have much itching down there anymore, on occasion, but I do have some warts, still using the compound W....I think I've realized that I'm just not attractive for guys or something...they don't want to date me, they just want to have sex with me....I haven't felt very attractive and although I've lost 7 pounds recently and still working on losing more, I just don't feel like guys like me...oh well. I moved this weekend, cut my hair, so I feel like I'm turing over a new leaf....hey did I mention about that guy who basically said I was fat? well he texts me out of the blue and asks if I wanted to have sex with him...like wtf? why do you want to have sex with me, you're not even attracted to me? what a typical guy response.....he was like do you want to have sex or not, and I was like no! not because of the viruses but by moral standard he's a jack ass and I don't have time for that, even if I haven't had sex in 8 1/2 months.....I'd rather be celebate then get addicted, hurt and left when he moves out of the state.... guys are douches........anyway, I feel empowered that I said no.....I'm standing my ground....and although I may end up a crotchedy cat lady...at least I didn't let guys take advantage of me anymore...one day I'll be in control of my health and be able to have realtionships again......until then, I've been having this pain in my left breast, I wouldn't say there is a lump but there is some breast tissue directly related to the pain...my dr. is keeping an eye on it...pray it's not cancer...I'm only 24, that's the last thing I need right now

31 Days Post Resolve

Well it's officially been a month since I ended the detox, so about 4 weeks. Surprisingly enough I have no symptoms. I still have a few warts but the compound W is slowly but surely taking care of them. I don't have any tingling or itching down there today. I do have a cold. I had a really stressful week at work last week and now I've got it bad. It concerns me a little because I got colds frequently because my immune system was lowered before I did the detox. I ran out a vitamins and can't get more till the beginning of the month. I'm hoping this doesn't mess things up..I have my pap today. Not seeing my OB/GYN cuz she is on vacaton and I'm about a month overdue for my pap so I want to get that done so my OB/GYN can see the results. I'll probably go in on the 5th to have her check things out....if I continue to use the compound W, the warts may all be gone by then. So that's encouraging. My biggest fear right now is that I've been having some pain in my left breast. I have one particular spot that I know it's coming from. I don't know if it's really a lump there cuz I've always had lumpier breast tissue but I don't have it on the other side, even though I get pain there less frequently. I few years ago I had some major pain the same breast and it was just irritated lymph glands. Breast cancer runs in my family, but I'm not supposed to start getting mamograms for another 3 years. So just pray it's nothing serious. It didnt' really start bothering me until I started the detox, now it's been off and on for a while. It's been most consistent in the last few days but I think it might be because I should start my period next week. Not sure, will all the stress and everything and lowered immune system. I'm fearful I have cancer too. A friend of mine just recently had a double mastectomy. If I found out I had cancer, I would not resort to a mastectomy. I'm only 24, I want to have a family someday.....so keep me in your prayers that everything goes well at the Dr. today....otherwise things are going well. Moving this weekend and apart from the cold, I'm moving forward.

23 Days Post Resolve

Well, I've been super depressed as you all know, feeling worthless and unlovable...I'm still having itching and tingling down there. I still have the warts and I know those cause itching, but this detox is supposed to get rid of that too...the compound W is working slowly but surely, but I'm going in for my follow up pap smear today and I'll have her remove the rest of them then....Trying not to get more is the hard part. I don't know how to keep my immune system up. I take vitamins everyday...I desperately need to get more sleep though. .I'm exhausted and with what happened with that jack ass last night I'm beat.....what sucks even more was that he really wasn't a jerk about it at all...he basically very politely told me that I lied about the way I looked, which I guess I just know how to take good pictures of myself cuz I don't look fat in them, but I guess I am...regardless of how me said it, it still hurt just the same. It wouldn't have been so bad but my weight has been the biggest issue with me lately and I really didn't need some guy, who I thought liked me for me, to point it out and make me feel even worse. Especially cuz I know he likes sex and that's something I couldn't give him if I wanted to right now...I really need some support from a guy, not necessarily a boyfriend, just a guy who can hold me and be honest and help me understand how guys will handle this. I'm still praying resolve works...I just want the warts to be gone, I can at least still have a normal sex life as long as I don't have something contagious down there constantly...but I have been working out regularly and now that I've been so stressed I've been working out harder...I have a new, no carbs diet plan as well as a weekly workout routine. I'm going to kick butt and when I'm done I'm going to be sexy as hell and all them dumb asses will eat their words cuz they're not getting any from me......I'm thankful I've been cursed with these viruses cuz they taught me a valuable lesson. A good friend of mine made a valid statement, she said being fat has helped me wein out the jerks, which is true. I'm not going to be the same size forever, especially when I have kids and I need some one to encourage me to be healthy but love me whether I'm 140lb or 180lbs......I'm working on it, slowly but surely. I'm going to go for a walk, work up a sweat before my dr.'s appointment. wish me luck

Horrible Night

So remember the date i mentione I was supposed to have. Well my worst fears came true....not only did I have this feeling all day like he was going to cancel but I feared he would not find me attractive.....Bingo!.....so I get this text from him saying he got promoted they are all going out to celebrate and he had to cancel our date.....then later he called and asked me to come over...so I drop all over the freakin country side because his directions were the long way around and when I got there he was totally cold to me. We watched a very sexually suggestive movie and he kept making comments about how the girls in the movie were hot and never even looked at me....I told him to just give it to me straight....he said I didn't look like my pictures, that I needed to update then....that the ones I sent him weren't even close to what I really looked like. Do you know how bad that hurts, to worry all week that you're not good enough to have that be validated.....the part that hurt me initially was that I really liked him and thought he could be husband material but he is going on a 5 month tour to alaska for the coast guard and when he's done he is moving to florida so I wouldn't be able to pursue a relationship even if I wanted to......I guess God really has His ways of closing the doors...and I certainly wouldn't tell this guy about my viruses and such.....I just feel like the worst shit there ever was....I've started thinking about suicide again....no one needs me here and obviously I'm some how unlovable to guys.....I don't want to die, I want to be happy but I can't live being this miserable...I want to stop eating also, maybe then I'll be skinny enough for some one to find me attractive...I sure do hate my life right now....

21 Days Post Resolve

I'm feeling really discouraged, although my warts seem to be getting a little better with the compound W I saw a few bumps that looked a little red, now I don't know if they are red because of the compound W or if it's an outbreak, I can't feel them, they don't hurt or anything. Maybe this is the last of the herpes after the detox, my clearing symptoms...I'm only about 3 weeks post resolve and still have many many to go so I guess things could really change in the next 2 months....It's just really tingly down there lately and still itchy...I don't know if this is bad or good but it doesn't make me feel postive about being cleared of this virus....I have a dr. appt thursday and I just really hope it goes well... I want these warts to be gone, I'm tired of knowing they are down there....also I have a date tomorrow with a guy I really like, he could be potential husband material. He is really fit and into fitness and he said the best work out for girls to do are squats, lunges, and military press for your arms....all things I hate to do which I probably why I need to lose weight there...I'm really afraid he is not going to be attracted to me and think I'm too fat.... I really want to find the one and I'm tired of this stupid virus being the one thing that's getting in my way from having a relationship. Mainly because it's totally screwing with my head...i'm really starting to feel depressed again, I really want to lose weight and over the last week I've yo yoed these 2 pounds I'm trying to lose....eating cottage cheese and berries for breakfast, salad with raspberry lime organic vinegarette and whatever for dinner, I just want it to be enough, i'm not comfortable in my own skin and I want some one to find me attractive again...This is a terrible week for me

Guys are rude

So I was just checking my e-mails and stuff. I met this guy online awhile back and we started talking and I felt like I could be really open with him....I told him everything about me, even the deepest darkest parts of me. On two occasions I told him something personal, the first time he fell asleep on the phone and the second time we got disconnected. Both times I spilled my guts to him and he didn't hear it. Accident or not it really frustrated me because it took a lot for me to tell him the things I did. When he knew the truth, even about the STD's he was very understanding and still wanted to date me. i don't know if I was really interested in him or not but it was nice to talk to some one....well I got frustrated when he didn't hear what I said and I said a lot and really didn't want to repeat myself...anyway, he had a falling out over that whole situation but later we kind of reconnected and decided to start over....so he sends me this message asking when we were getting together and I told him I was really busy for the next few weeks. Which I am, I worked in a fireworks booth everyday after work for like 5 days and I'm moving in 2 weeks and haven't packed a thing....I'm just stressed. So he said that I was full off bullshit and excuses. I was like um, no, we never even got to the point in the relationship where we were planning to meet up and I really have been busy. So I told him the truth about what I've been up to and the fact that I've been talking to some one who is potential husband material...so out of respect for him I don't really want to see other guys....so after all that I was like, what do you think? He said I was a Fucking God Psycho with STDs.....is that not a low blow or what? I mean, this guy is an ex marine who is seriously screwed up in the head from being in iraq, who is going to therapy over it...I would NEVER poke at the fact that he had a hard time over there, and he said he cared about me and respected me for telling him the truth and then he throws it in my face?! I don't understand guys, they are fine one second and flip out the next. He said he had been going to church and wanted some one to go with....so I've held him accountable to his faith and he tells me I'm a God Psycho? what is wrong with this picture? I think the part that discourages me the most is that I really want this new guy to be the one....although I think the Compound W is working and I'm getting better there is still this fear of having to confront this issue with this new guy. Last night we talked on the phone and I told him I've been working out, trying to lose weight. He asked me how much I weigh....I really didn't want to answer because I don't want him to view me as being some one who weighs 167lbs. The hard part about meeting guys online is that they can come up with this totally wrong image of you and then they are disappointed when they really see you....I want to be 140lbs but it's going to take a little time. Hopefully by the end of summer I will have lost at least 15lbs....with the holiday I've back tracked a little, but I'm going to start working out again today.....I just really want hope that this detox really worked...I don't want to worry about the HSV....the cervical cancer HPV can be removed if it's really bad and apparently the warts will go away in time and I won't even have to worry about it anymore.....I don't want to be honest with people about what I've got going on for them to just throw it in my face when they get angry...what happened to the good and decent people in this world? =(

19 Days Post Resolve

Well I thought I should right something since it's been about a week....so the itching has gone down a lot. I've been using Compound W wart removing gel on my warts, I think they are actually starting to get better. I still have my dr.'s appt. on thursday or my pap. otherwise things have been good, energy is good....working on eating healthier and working out....moving in two weeks and haven't packed a thing so I'm trying to get it altogether....I met a guy that so far I really like, he's potential husband material even. He doesn't know about the warts or HSV...I did tell him about the HPV (cervical cancer strand) which is none threatening to him....but he asked me what my take on sex was....and I like it but it's been about 8 months since I've had any and certainly am not ready to jump into bed with anyone....It's encouraging that the warts are getting a little better..once those are gone I will be much more hopeful....I really think that the virus being pushed out was causing more warts and more itching cuz they itch before they appear on the skin....no outbreaks that I've noticed, even with the compound W, I would think that would irritate the skin to the point of outbreak like I think the aldara did...so that's a good sign....It's only been 19 days since I ended the detox and it seems like so much longer.... I can't believe I have like 71 more days to go in this wait.....I hope that this new guy turns out to be the one....if I can get rid of these warts I'll be home free.....I hope he will understand I'm not looking to jump in the sack right away....I hate it when you first find some one you like and start obsessing over it.....I just have a good feeling about this guy....so keep your fingers crossed, for a cure and for a husband...cuz I'm so ready for the next step and I would love to find the one to have amazing sex with...sorry if that's an overshare but you know we all feel that way.....ok, well that's enough for one night. hope everyone is doing well...I'm pretty good....so yay

Itching & Tingling part 2

So I e-mailed resolve and they told me my symptoms are normal cuz my body is healing...they told me to give it 4 to 6 weeks. It's already been 2 so I'm sure hoping things will get better in the next 2 to 4 weeks...I noticed that my warts have definately gotten bigger, assuming the virus is being pushed out....I stopped using the detox topically cuz I they weren't getting smaller but they are definately bigger. So I saw a commercial for Compound W wart removal and I think I'm going to try some of that on the ones that they don't burn off at the dr...most of them seem big enough to be removed...so I guess this is just the second phase of my recovery, hoping that this next treatment will do the trick....It's not like it just itches down there, it's everyone. My back, my neck, my arms, mostly my legs but it's crazy how itchy I am....But the burning in my leg from earlier almost felt like heat zapping the virus..it's a crazy feeling. So I'm going to keep my fingers crossed that this really is a good thing.....

13 Days Post Resolve- Itching & Tingling

Ok so for whatever reason today the skin on the mid to upper part of my thighs as been really itchy and tingly. I never really felt that before, I did have pain in my butt and lower right leg before which I haven't had lately but I did have a tingling feeling shooting up and down my leg....mostly the skin on my legs just itch....The resolve team said that itching is normal...but I don't know about this. I'm a little concerned...I just kind of feel itchy all over...maybe it's all in my head, I don't really know, I don't feel tingly really down there...I guess a little...I don't know, i'm worried that the detox has warn off and I'm back to where I started....I had a crappy day in general. My friend was supposed to send me money to buy a plane ticket to go see him. I was going to take my vacation from work and fly down there and get all skinny to look good in the summer weather...and now I don't have the money and neither does he. I'll have the money to spend while I'm there but none for a plane ticket...So I'm trying to sell all my stuff, so far I've made about $25 bucks....people really don't want to spend money on stuff...I have these text books that cost a ton back in the day that are basically worth nothing now.....I don't know what to do, this was my vacation...anyone have any suggestions on how I can make money fast....and legal.....?

12 Days Post Resolve

So I e-mailed resolve and asked them about the cold sore and warts...they said my symptoms are normal and I'm doing everything correctly...they assured me that warts are harder to get rid of....cuz I swear the detox only made them bigger....but I'm going to have them removed this week....I've been working out and have felt really great, so much energy. I washed three cars today. I'm exhausted but I feel pretty accomplished....I still have a little itching but I still think it's from the warts I already have....They say that HPV clears your system in 2 years.... I don't really know about that....so even if the detox didn't get rid of it, it would be gone in 2 years anyway? I don't know, but the sooner I can get rid of these warts the better. I think I would be able to forget about all of this if I didn't have that physical symptom. So I'll keep my fingers crossed that my pap goes well too, that the detox hasn't made the affected area worse as well.....But all in all I feel really great, I have most of my energy back and in all just feel good. So that's a good sign...=)

11 Days Post Resolve- Cold Sore?

Ok so yesterday my lip was burning a little bit and I wasn't really sure why. I didn't feel anything but it was red. I have never had a cold sore. Even though I have type 1 I don't have it orally....or so I thought, never had a problem with cold sores.... since I'm 11 days post resolve I was like WTF? Well I'll probably still e-mail resolve cuz I kind of stopped using the detox topically, I think it was just making the warts bigger...which in a sense is good cuz I'm going to just have them removed when I go in for my pap next week. I'm sure this "cold sore" was just a clearing symptom, the strangest part though was that by the time I got home the top layer of skin had peeled off the area, there was a small white area in the red....by the next it had a very faint scab.....you couldn't even really tell I had it. So if this was a cold sore it's basically healed in like 2 days... which like the outbreak I had on step one it was very mild, I almost couldn't tell I was having one...So I felt relieved that it's gotten so much better already....I'm starting a pretty intense diet and excersize program. I really want to lose this excess weight...I've been taking my vitamins, working out twice a day, three times a week....tanning, and I'm getting my hair cut Tuesday....I'm undergoing a total body transformation. I'm going to visit a friend of mine in Tennessee in August and he's into body building and stuff, so I'm going to surprise him with my weight loss....I figured I have about 7 weeks or so to reach my goal. I have so many friends though that want to lose weight too we've kind of started a work out club....I'm moving in about 2 weeks and my new roommate wants to lose weight too so this should be a piece of cake... so wish me luck.....I'm getting totally healthy and I'm going to beat these heinous viruses with nutrition and excersize......A new day has come.....

7 Days Post Resolve

It's funny how it seemed like the detox flew by now that I'm done. I couldn't believe how far along I was during the process, and although it took me 60 days to finish and seemed like an eternity it still flew by...Now that I'm done, this 90 days is going by super slow.... Well I have more energy now, I'm motivated to lose weight...although I still feel tired my body doesn't feel run down like it did before, I think now it's just from pure lack of sleep and not the detox...I'm still feeling good otherwise. Part of me thinks the detox is making the warts bigger, I don't know if it's drawing out the remaining virus or what...it's still itches some..it's not too bad...I have to go in for a pap smear here soon to check my HPV (cervical cancer strand) to make sure it hasn't progressed at all...If the warts are getting worse I wonder if the abnormal spots on my cervix have gotten worse. I hope not cuz I don't want another biopsy, they are not fun. I decided I'm just going to have the larger warts removed. i was hoping the detox would get rid of them, but I don't have time to wait for them to go away, I want them gone now. Hopefully once removed they won't come back.....I wish they could burn off the smaller ones too but I guess there is too much risk of damaging the skin or something...Anyway...I sure hope this detox gets rid of everything....So I've been talking to some one else who has warts too and she went to a sexual health clinic and they said the virus should clear her (my) system in 2 years and if all physical symptoms are gone then you wouldn't need to tell people you have it....I guess I'm just used to the whole HSV concept of always shedding the virus, I would think it's the same. I mean I got this from some one and I'm pretty sure he didn't have any physical warts when he gave it to me....most guys don't know they have stuff like this...obviously...unless they were just a jack ass and deliberately subjected me to this....that's so unfair....Anyway....things are progressing nicely, I'm taking my vitamins daily...I've worked out yesterday and today and taking half hour walks on my lunch break...I may be going to visit a friend cross country at the end of the summer so I need to get bikini body ready now....that's my new goal....Summer, here I come...

2 Days Post Resolve

Well, it's day 2 of not having to take this stuff anymore and it's wonderful!!!! I feel good and have been taking my vitamins daily. I had some really amazing fruit yesterday and today....honestly...I kind of feel the way I did before I got diagnosed with everything. I mean I know it's too soon the tell and obviously I still have the warts, which I'm working on...but by september 16th I will be rid of all of this junk and be on with the rest of my life. I'm trying to get healthy and I think I'm going to go work out today even...I was supposed to go swimming last night but decided to eat ice cream and french fries with my friend instead....but I'm tired of being my size, it's unacceptable and I'm going to do something about it now that I'm well enough to get off the couch. I've been tanning too and that makes me feel really good...I move in a month and it's just really symbolic for a new phase in my life...I've notice that everyone I went to high school with is getting married and it's my turn...I'm determined to be the person I want to be and not just a subject of my circumstances anymore....here's to the next 87 days to heal and the rest of my life to be happy. =)

Day 60-- I'M DONE!!!!!

YAY!!!!! I don't have to drink this junk anymore!!!!! I do still have to use it topically, hopefully that will get rid of the warts. I still have them, I don't know if they are getting better or not.... I'm super tired today, I'm taking my vitamins starting tomorrow. I can't wait to have energy again... I had a bit of a stomach ache this morning about an hour or two after my dose, but water really helped....I have a few pimples but they aren't nearly as back as they were in the beginning. I noticed that the itching became really noticable when I started using it topically, so I don't know if it's a clearing symptom of what....but the resolve team told me to give it 6 weeks. I may go get the warts removed just to speed up the process. Anyway, I'm just relieved to be done. I can't believe it's been exactly 60 days!!!!! that seems like an eternity to be taking something....yay for me!!!! Now we wait.....

Day 58- Extension Day 2

Oh HORRIFIC STOMACH PAIN!!!! I don't know what it is about 17 and 18 drops but last night I was awakened by the worst stomach pain! I don't know if it's because I didn't really eat much that was solid or because I took it right before bed or what....but just when I get rid of the stomach ache I have to take another dose and it starts all over again. It's not just something that wears off after a few minutes either, they come in waves and hit you when you least expect it. I tried eating a lot before hand, I tried drinking water, eating an apple, tums.....everything. The only thing that helped was walking around and then laying flat on my stomach.....it even hurt worse to touch my stomach. You know, at the end of step one it was a lot nastier too, maybe because the minerals were kind of set in the bottle...maybe with the higher amount of drops and the settled minerals at the bottom of the activator it just didn't settle well. Well I'm almost out of activator, I may or may not have enough for one more dose of 5ml's. I did go buy lemon juice though, which they say to subsitute if you run out... I do still have to use it topically so I needed to get something. I was debating on whether to finish the extension cuz I don't know if I can stand this stomach pain for two more days. I think I'm going to try and attempt my second dose, maybe using the lemon juice will be better since i won't have the settled minerals to stir things up....I still have been using it topically too and this morning it totally burnt the crap out of my skin...No wonder it's messing with my stomach if it's eating my flesh right off my body......ugh!!!! I'm so tired of this detox.....I'm still feeling good up until last night...and without this stomach pain I'd be good...only 2 more days......keep your eye on the prize, but word to the wise.....the extension sucks!!!!!!!!