Day 52- the count down begins!

Only 4 days left to go....I still have some warts, I think they have gotten a little better. The resolve team said to continue to use step 3 topically for the next week and they will see if I need to do an extension...I'm not even worried about the HSV anymore, I just want these warts gone and I never want to deal with them again. It's just embarrassing. I couldn't imagine having a sex life and having warts, I don't want anyone to see that or have to touch it. Tomorrow is day 11 of step 3- 12 drops and 5ml's of this nasty junk....Thankfully this has been the easiest step because I don't have symptoms other than two rather large and annoying pimples and being tired as usual. I just got new contacts too and that doesn't really help with the dry eyes. I got new glasses too cuz the eye dr. said I need to be getting more oxygen to my eyes, I would think that would make me feel more tired, but we will see. It's better than having to have a cornea transplant. The dr. turned my eyelids inside out, which was really weird, and I guess I have a small bump under my right eyelid....guess my contacts are irritating my eyes, I wonder if the detox has anything to do with that..

-My kidneys kind of hurt a little today, my lungs already detoxed during step one, so maybe my kidneys detoxed too...I'm not opposed to having a squeaky clean system..=) But I generally feel good, I don't really have a nasty taste in my mouth like I did during step 2. It's really gross to begin with but it's weird how you get used to how disgusting it is.....If people haven't ever done shots I don't think they could do this detox...you just have to be like 1, 2, 3....down the hatch... one symptom I have had on step 3 was gas...remember when you were a kid and you were like S.B.D.... silent but deadly? yeah, really immature, but that's totally step 3....quiet farts but man do they stink....I'm not one to talk about gas, but when you get to step 3 you might need to leave the crowd for a minute.....

Step 3:

gas
pimples
fatigue

that's pretty much it....I would count down the 4 days I have left but with these warts I may end up doing an extension....so we will see....this has been quite the journey and I can't believe I stuck with it this long.... 52 days...man that almost 2 months....I couldn't do a 10 detox before and I've managed to stick it out for 2 months, through fevers, and nightmares, and gas.......I think it would be a lot harder if I had a lot of bloating. Other than some slight finger swelling and a little bit of stomach bloating it wasn't painful like some other detoxes I've done......Well...here's to four more days and then the rest of my life......Cheers!

Day 50- Happy Birthday to Me!

Today was my birthday...yay....I love my birthday, even if things don't work out the way you planned....it's still a day about you. The one day you can be selfish and not feel bad about it....something I've learned over the years, as I've gone out of my way for friends time and time again, sometimes you just need to take time for you. You need to have a day of your own. Although it seems as though I share a birthday with a handful of people, I started the day sharing the morning with my friend who also has my birthday. So we went to the zoo and had a great time. Even though I didn't get to sleep in, the time we allowed for the zoo was just enough. I came home and took a nap, went and bought a new birthday outfit and went to dinner with my dad, sister and friend. About a month ago I ordered a new bed set- comforter, pillow shams, throw pillows, etc...and it just happened to get delivered while I was at dinner, so I came home to a surprise package. It was kind of my birthday present to myself and it arrived on my birthday. How perfect is that? So I'm super excited about that. I just felt very fortunate through this whole day that I felt good, I've felt better than I have in months. The warts aren't gone but there is certainly light at the end of the tunnel. I'm really going to focus on being healthier once I have more energy. Sleep is certainly one thing I've lacked this weekend.

-For all of you who are doing this detox, thinking about it, or feel like there is no hope- don't give up. There are still little pleasures and things to look forward to in life, and when days like your birthday roll around, you really know who your true friends are. So many people have surprised me today. As disgusting as this detox is.....it's been worth it to feel the way that I do now....I'm just so glad I don't feel sick inside....I wish the day wouldn't end, but for what I planned and how it turned out, I feel very greatful.....thanks everyone who gave me birthday wishes, that meant a lot to me, and I appreciate the support....

Tomorrow I up my dose to 10 drops and 5ml- which means it's going to get that much more gross- but tomorrow is another promising day that I'm looking forward to. -Have a great weekend everyone!

Day 48, part 2

So I waited to take my second dose today till after dinner because I wanted to use it topically. When I used it it seemed like some of my warts were a little bit better than before, maybe this stuff is working faster than i thought. A few more days of this and I could be all clear......that would be so sweet!.....oh one symptom I forgot to mention which I don't really have a problem with now, but I didn't sleep well for about a week or so, and kept having very vivid dreams. Nightmares even...I kept having the same dream that some one steals my car. I had it last night and also that some one was in my apartment and just when I found then and started to beat the crap out of them I woke up...lol...that's what I get for sleeping with the window open...lol....well I really hope all that goes away when I stop taking this....I'm pretty sure it will. Well tomorrow I'm up to 8 drops and 3ml's..The should be really gross.....well I'm off to organize my bills and try to keep cool. It's about 85 today, hot hot hot.....well I'll let you know how gross the dose is tomorrow....lataz

Day 48

Well today really should be my last day of this detox....but....it's not....too bad for me. I still have 8 more days left.....that just seems unheard of. I've been on this stuff FOREVER....it will feel weird not to take it... I still feel good, still using step 3 topically. Haven't really seen any improvement, other than the itching has subsided some, hopefully it will kill it in the skin. Or maybe the itching is a good thing, like a clearing symptom or something. But come day 14 I wonder if I should take the extension. I can't imagine taking 20 drops of this crap, it's so sick. I guess I'll have to ask them when it gets closer. But then again that 90 day waiting period is also crucial to clearing out whatever is left of these viruses. Regardless, I still feel really good, I've been tired, falling asleep on the couch after work, but that's a normal symptom. I'm still kind of irritable and moody. With my birthday coming up and my plans keep getting changed it doesn't help much. Kind of makes me want to flip out on people and I'm normally not that way.... so as a recap, here are the symptoms I've experienced:

fatigue
pimples on face, back, legs, armpits, scalp
stomach pain
nausea- vomiting once
fever- chills
dehydration
diahrrea the first day
loose stools
gas
bad taste in my mouth
night sweats
slight runny nose
moodiness/ mood swings
finger swelling (temporarily)
dry eyes
bloating
itching
minor outbreaks

and anything I missed you can find in my entries below.....I can't believe how close I am to being done....at 5 days I think I'll start the count down...=) all I ask for now is to have a good birthday on saturday..

Day 47

I feel surprisingly great today! The sun is out, I'm still a little tired, but generally feel good inside. Healthier even. I don't really feel any tingling down there like before. I still have the warts, which itch when new ones develope, but, I'm treating those topically and so we will see what kind of success I will have with that. I'm supposed to get my pap this month, but I don't even have the $20 for my copay so I'll have to wait till next month. By then i'll be done with this nasty stuff. I took 6 drops and 3ml's today....oh heavens, it was nasty. I definately need to mix it with something other than apple juice....I think the cup I've been using will forever smell like chlorine. It says if you run out of the activator, you can use lemon juice. I bet that would make it taste a lot better, but very tart/sour. Otherwise, I'm doing good. The pimples are dying down some. I've been using Burt's Bees skin cream wash. Feels pretty nice. I think I will forever have physical scars from some of these pimples though, they were nasty looking. Still have some inflammation from one on my neck though. I've been out in the sun though and that has always helped my skin stay clearer. Well for all of those who read this blog and aren't as far in the detox...there is hope...like I said, my insides generally feel better and I haven't been able to say that in months....Yay Back to health minerals, you taste so gross but make me feel so good...lol....well i'm off to take my second dose today..yuck yuck yuck....

Day 46

ok so I wrote my last entry after midnight so really monday was day 45 and tuesday, today, is day 46. Just so you aren't confused....So today hasn't been that bad. Made sure to mix my dose with juice, NOT WATER. Any juice that is a little thicker is good so it doesn't take on the taste of the detox as much. Tomorrow I up my dose to 6 drops and 3ml's which should be pretty nasty....As far as symptoms go, I don't really feel much of anything down there. I still need to get rid of the warts, and it's been a little itchy towards the front but otherwise I don't really feel any tingliness anywhere else like I usually do. So I'm starting to think this stuff really works. If I can get rid of the warts and more don't appear I'll be home free. That's really all I'm worried about is the HPV. I'm almost positive the HSV is gone....I'm still tired though, but I was also out late....Only taking the detox twice a day is nice cuz you don't feel like it's consuming your life as much. It's still gross which makes it worse than the other 2 steps but it's day 4 out of 14 and I feel pretty good. So hopefully it will only get better from here..

Day 45

So I made the mistake of mixing step 3 with water today instead of juice and it was like drinking straight chlorine! Sick sick sick sick, gross gross, ew ew ew, bleh bleh! I can't tell you how nasty it was. Don't you just love it when you some how screw things up and then the consequence doesn't go away. Since I didn't mix it with juice I can't get the taste out of my mouth. This is only day 3, I have to do another day of 4 drops + 1ml and then I move up to 6 drops and 3ml's. This is going ot be fun...well otherwise things haven't changed too much. no major pimples other then the one on my neck. I still have a few small ones on my face but that's really nothing to complain about....so not a whole lot is new other then Step 3 is GROSS!!!!! that's all...gotta hit the sack..catch up with you later